How many times it had happen. How many incident had happened. How many times it causes us to aruge .
How tiny is my brain , how pathetic. Pathetic in the way that it doesnt really function before "it" came out of my mouth. "it" may be innoncet for what i thought .But "it" became monsterous , blood thristy and murderous to others and hurt one deeply .
How i wonder the many times that dEaR could have endure? How i wonder ..If those "it" were to stuck on me , how painful it would be . Like millions of sharp pointy knife stabbing on the soft armored heart.
Yet lesson had been learn before , but it seems that i have change none at all .Still the same before , still as idiot as before . Perhaps a brain surgeon would help to cure. How long i yearn to change all this such no arugement would come in between us .For all it started because of "it". how stupidity of me .
im sinned.

Nothing can help me,
only myself.
Yet i myself couldnt
do much to help.
how stupid that would be.

So please dEaR , please stay with me for i can't do anything with my own. sorry my dEaR . i really do. please forgive me .

words of pain

posted by Zeph Chew at 11:10 PM

Its been 3 months since i got together with dEaR.
Time flies , maybe to other people 3months is nothing , but 3 months for me is something . I have not tasted been in such a long relationship . It is the most sweetest relationship i have more than any other i have been in before . Though there is some little or major conflict we have , but it always ended with peace again . No damaged was done as both loved each other deeply for none wish to end . Understanding between each other was much more deeper , understanding the mistake of the other party and love the mistake .Loving which was said " To love someone , you must love both his/her strength and weakness " for those who can't love weakness requires more understanding before it vanish into thin air.
What can i ask more , my dEaR has been the most wonderful , caring , understanding and patient women i had meet . I can stand what she do , what she does , what she done . OK! =D.
I hope our love will be as long lasting as it can be , for two of us will create that .
Love you lots dEaR. just to tell you that sometimes you should just don't bother what i tell you cause those hurting comment i made without thinking , understanding towards you those were impulsive words .
so dEaR , sorry for those past times that i hurt u .

Its not possible for eternity to happen,
it just need both of us to believe to
make it happen . =D


Life has been wonderful ever since you stepped into mine world , your world and mine bond together to create a new world , fun of interesting and never ending joy and laughter =D.

posted by Zeph Chew at 4:13 PM

oh well. its been awhile since i have blogged =.= .Cause im too lazy to.LOL.haiya.. 1month already ..lol.
Anyway , got back O levels results like 1month ago . well, did better than i expected and as for my English got D7 as i expected too.lol. oh well , at least my results got me into poly . Got into the same poly as dEaR after posting was out .she got the fiancial business infomatics , i got into cyber and digital security in short same school same building.lol sweet~.
Time pass by so quickly , its like we were slacking around in school just few days ago and now we moving on life in seperate ways . different schools , different environment , different people .Hope that all of us could adept to it fast like what we did before from primary school to secondary school . I sort of hope that all of us would keep in contact frequently and meet out sometimes .Well we had been together as friends for almost 5years and its kinda waste to lose it just because we are walking different path now . lets hope =D.
Hope all of my friends a great success in future . Hope all those who fall to accumlate more determination to battle again for better results . bless all.

There are millions of people in singapore ,
getting our paths together in life for 5 years is slim.
lets not forget the times we were together as friends,
sharing things , chilling out together , getting into troubles ,
the joy , the laughter , the nerdy times , the panicy times
and mostly the fun times . =D

posted by Zeph Chew at 3:34 PM