the scream still echo inside my head.the harsh words reflect how useless one is.i feel nothing at all.what is the point.
what i once thought to be joyful and peaceful ,turns out to be broken and shcattered.what is becoming to this peaceful moment? was i too naive thinking then .or i just know more than what i suppose to know.
i see no point of raising another, i see no point in waiting anymore, the end draw near.the final eruption will soon be here.time is running out on me . what can i do .what am i suppose to do when i face the enraged you?i can't utter a single word .i have no rights , all the power seems to be with you , as i am not but a leech , leeching on your life force , draining away every second of your life slowly and painfully.
its too much to bear , too much to carry . you ought to throw one off , to carry on easily and steadily.

Journey Of Life , never try to buy what you can't afford . you will pay the ultimate consequences , which will drain every second of your life away just by paying it. be wise . think thrice.

posted by Zeph Chew at 8:43 PM

dot . crap . what was it today .lol dont really feel like doing the composition.lol . crap =X.haiya. slacking like mad. while others are chionging like mad.DOT. looks familiar....

Zhi Shao Hai You Ni.

Journey Of Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 9:13 PM

Well , guess gradually im returning back to the point .just like a car on a slope .stop the engine and it will slide back due to gravity.=D. lol. prehaps im still have the stupid mind , sorry about offensive comments. just making assumption , well that prehaps may kill the faith . dot.i dont wish to repeat history.
Well , today was bored.especially dragging myself out of the bed or rather sofa.lol .damn , well to school for like 10mins to do dnt.DOT!! taught emaths .well if she doesnt want , then never mind next time prehaps.i feel so been irresonpsible. haiya.
life is sad , everything you wanted to do is always oppose by unpredictable force. it just keep dragging you down when you are trying to fly.whatever that is , we just can't end now ,its foolish prehaps..or ? .well just keep living till the final bell ring . for now , friends are there to accompany , family is there to help or prehaps not. haiya.

Life like this
Live it.

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 10:00 PM

yeah today.i woke up late.like gosh , monday to thurs rushing to school and now finally im late..lol .slpt at emaths =x.well went to school for 3 stuff , PE . moive and amaths.lolx .well the moive is hilarious.people who are stressed up , catch it ! you will sure to laugh off your seat like i do.lol.

Well i thought they say ask and you shall be given .haiya . prehaps the person think otherwise .this is when good intention turns bad. =x.prehaps.haha .i thought things will change , well itz the same .nvm.lol tired of it already . feeling very weird recently .kinda unkeen now.im tired.

not another one , ya true it failed her driving lesson , she just keep driving madly.lolx on frenzy =X.lol

its dead.


Purpose Driven Life.


posted by Zeph Chew at 11:29 PM

lol.woot.is it done?like finally?lolx.last !! presentation!.haha dot.kinda tired to stay in school. can't help but to sleep again , well at least now i slpt during free period.haiya , lacking lots of motivation to study. how?lol .althought this is prelims . . . .but dot.sian ... cant get myself to sit down and study!!.i guess a lot of people is facing this problem . but well , from what i see is handful or rather a lot of them studying .gosh. accumlate?lol.sian ... what a terrible feeling of competition...lolx.

sian , i still can't get enough sleep . i yearn for more.yup weekends.=).

If you dont have the mood to play , dont drag us down .we arent that pessimistic as you. it just kills the team spirit . so what for you join? for fun? what kind of shitty character is this? fucking waste my time?fucking waste my money.

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 9:10 PM

haha.sian , slpt like mad in class again ><.so tired =x.LOL .dot stayed in school as usual .haiya just awhile more and it should be done =).so happy to finish. ^^V.well itsdying .yeah it is.i just found that there is a way to reapproach in a different manner .that will be the best for the person .

it may look like another traffic light but to me , it is something i cross about everyday.

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 8:26 PM

haiya.well , going to finish my dnt soon .that is really a piece of good news =).2 more pages and i suppose that im done~ .ha. just recall how much effort have been put inside , all the nights ..ahh worth it.

ya a break , everyone does want it. i yearn for a break as though a kid yearning for a candy. haiya. but it seems to be impossible . the world is moving real fast , stop and you shall be lag behind .it is a high competition world aren't it?all your classmate will outwin you even how smart you are . well , when will we get a break? after o's?nah it will be the time for work . to earn and to pay back , to be reponsible for your future behold , to be sensible , to be independent cause just few more years and you are on your own. so , we will process to a higher and higher level . when do we stop ?when we have white hair all over? maybe? we just regenerate what had been lost today by sleeping and use it for tomorrow and do it again for the next day .just a cycle it always have been a cycle.

i just realise that i cant rest!

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 8:06 PM

dot.dot.lolx indeed abit what i guessed.dot , well im kinda dont like indirect , too irritating .somemore infront of me.dot.nvm nvm.i can take it.lolx.from what i think , ya it is true.i tend to lose myself whenever she is presence.duh.lolx.i just couldnt stand calm anymore , talk without thinking.well , that is something which i dont seems to be able to change so easily .bad habits die hard.dot.well , i'll try again till i success.that is the spirit?lolx. very tired. sorry to all .
prehaps i thought that people will be able to take it like i do , i was wrong.lolx.i can take jokes doesnt mean other can.duh.haiya. sorry again.

its fading off..i suppose...
Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 2:35 PM

haha.dot. gosh i think im not able to survive without handphone man , just get so impatient just now to get home for my lovely HP.gosh .dot dot.how can one survive without commiuncation?lol .damn the bus is slow once again.wasted like 40mins waiting and waiting for it to arrive at my house bus stop.dot.just hate that feeling , it is unbearable.lol.did dnt today , finally finish one section , gosh i just slpt with the music.dot dot.well , going to school tomorrow for dnt.going to do dnt later such that i can finish the whole folio tml , hopefully ya.well , going to drama night tml.haha lets see what surpise they are going to give.lolx.

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 9:20 PM

im feeling so lethagric now.gosh , panic at oral again =/.awww?lolx.i just totally freak OUT.dot dot.sad -.-.never mind .its OVER.good luck to those taking tml . quite boring and tiring day today , still working on dnt. hopefully this sat can be able to finish. lols. haiya.had prata just now .quite filling i suppose , or?haha.my stomach is unpredictable.=0 . im tired !! ><

damn.i felt like a clown.dot , or wasnt i?lolx well , prehaps if you were to shower me with answers .im sure that i won't feel that.well it maybe too selfish =x.lolx.well , it took me awhile to realise that.gosh , i must be dazing in my own world just now if not i would have realise it earlier.dot dot.crappy. why have it been this?hmm prehaps this?or that?lolx can't make assumption =x.lol.there i go again .dot dot.

well , i kinda ponder me about this .it takes guys more to understand about girl. gosh , i agree on that . but it is kinda tiring sometimes cause we are guys and we arent girls.LOL . that is kinda simple.we won't feel what they are going thru right?lolx.so what we have to do is guess and using experiences xO.lol.sometimes it is good sometimes it is not.depending on the girl i suppose or the guy.lolx.it is hard to predict.dot. or should i say really hard . or?prehaps im thinking too sophisticated.prehaps it can be simple.haha no ending.-.-.

Meaning of Life?
Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 6:28 PM

Well, the situation was kinda out of hand anymore.it was the limit!ya thought so.well , prehaps i wasn't too good to be direct in a sense that you never really put your shoes in another person situation.ya i was surpise what i had said in the past had affected the growth on you.god , i wish to amend my mistake.really sorry.but i don't know what i had say is too stupid or just about vending my anger . ya right.im in a wrong too.i dont know i just feel that.be in mind to be always tactful when talking , cause we wouldnt know how the other person feel , what we say would really pissed another party .ya like what i did today.it isn't good to talk bad about another party's belief , it is like pulling what they are dreaming of , believeing of and living on.we arent in their shoes right?keep to ourself maybe something good.somethings arent meant to be said , while others still can. aiya i just feel so confused !!im lost of words.dot. just feel that if it can be avoided just avoid it.i dont wish anything will happen to break the bond we having. =
well,kinda panicing now . 2 things for tomorrow .kinda have prelims practical tml.haiya and also O level english oral .i was like speaking english all the way just now.lolx.prehaps it will help , prehaps not.im shaking now.lolx.or not.LOL.sian .it is kinda a last lap for all of us in this school , the last of everything .i will really miss it.=
godspeed to all tomorrow.
Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 8:53 PM

I WANT THE BOOK !! I WANT THE BOOK , DAMN I WANT THAT BOOK.DOT.lol gosh 2 days already yet no one TAG ME indicating they have the book NOT.OMG i can't stand it.OUR school LIBRARY is PATHETIC man.so small!!can just close it man =.-.LIKE NOTHING AT ALL.LOL. i really want that book before i just get bored of reading.haha really craving to read now .ARGG.no ending.DOT.every fantasy MUST have a ENDING arent it?HAHA.=x .dot im going mad.

sian.what is with that,am i suppose to know what happen?or?should i be studying rather than using the computer so that you get a better impression rather than seeing me using the computer EVERYDAY so you get so pissed?i dont know , prehaps im thinking too much again.aiyas , put that aside , just storm the front .haha i can talk with same generation people . but i cant talk with the older generation .IT IS VERY SCARY =. - . but well what promised is promised ! just do it.

hoho.today dnt , hmm..finally settle the problem after running here and there like for 4times?-.-.siao.LOL.damn,i forgot to set the weight of my artifect IT IS SO BLOODY HEAVY,my hand nearly snap into 2.LOL.ok that is over exaggerating =x.LOL.well , tml binding =). gogo.friday !

Purpose Driven Life.
oohh kinda bias =x.


posted by Zeph Chew at 8:36 PM

OMG,im out of DNT PAPER,CRAP.WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO.tml dnt.siao =.=.death upon me =.=.OMG.=x

posted by Zeph Chew at 9:55 PM

right,what have i done today..hmm , nothing much though .seriously , today's entertainment is sort of like yesterday's -.-.lol except i done some dnt .haha and im going to continue later on.lol.counter strike with wc3 is crappy game.LOL. yawn . right .that is all ba.no inspiration today.HAHA.still looking for the book.no one tag me yet =( sian.lol

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 8:52 PM

haiya.still kinda sian.have to pia dnt tml or later , i just thought that i have lots to do.even though im thinking of doing , my body isnt responding.haiz,that is the feeling i always have , my heart is weak , my mind is weak , my body is dead. -.- . this is really bored , playing the same game everyday , doing the same stuff day after day.gosh i need a change ! or prehaps a restart of everything . well , THATS impossible i suppose .lolx. it is kinda fast , i was yearning for the national day , now?omg , a full five days of school up ahead and the o level english oral .dot.im doom!i need a push factor , maybe what i have in mind isn't strong enough or it is just nothing to me.im more like a stray dog , walking nowhere , eat where there is food , sleep where there is bed.

right , what so called "divine intervention" is when GOD start to partcipate in the affair of man.

The end of the day ! how bored -.- .i just freaking hate weekends though i yearn for it during the weekdays.LOL.weird you can say,but that is the feeling i have.=.=

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 10:44 PM

Was it all done out because of that?because you think im need it?or what was it.i cant figure it out.yes maybe it is.maybe it is not.cause i myself thinks that im trying to gain it.

I didnt expect it to be so fast,it is very selfish of me really .To be honest,what i want is to clear my doubt which means no gain in the other party which im asking.or wasnt it?i dont know what the other party is thinking now.this is up to my brain,my heart and my soul to think optmistic or pessimistic.=)

Ask and you shall be answered.

posted by Zeph Chew at 10:44 PM

Sian.dot sia.thought will come back and see what i expect to see.haha but i never.that is what i call what you plan will always be affected.haha.sian.tonight so sian,sian and sian.lolx.it was really nice of sending me that.thanks.
well,today was really tiring, have to wake up early for speech day and I & E.dang.lolx.performance was great , well that is why i wanted to go for the speech day.haha.=x .the damn trophey is so huge distinctive dumanties award 0.0.what an eye opener.bigger than the 8A1s student.lol.Now is really called finish.yeah 100% completed.haha.left pictures to take.I & E was quite alright , not much guest and i dont really know how to speak to parents.lol.they never prompt qns to me =. -.lol.kinda weird.very slpy while waiting for it to start,but lucky i have songs to keep me awake.lol.DINNER with the whole group.woot shared experiences.haha.been awhile since we sat down and talk.was fun suaning miss kwek =x.LOL
Well, kinda happy and tired today,haha cause of some reason.but still abit sad cause of another reason.=X

Even those who doesnt know what im going thru knows what it feels like to be in my shoes.what am i suppose to do now?
Im trying hard to find my way out,yet there are always obstacles added each time i cleared one.how long will this takes.i wonder.

Everything of Us will never
be forgotten.

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 9:50 PM

yup done it.but im still thinking whether to give or not.something held me back just now as i thought of what i saw that day.should i be doing this?this will determine a lot of difference.very very big change in my life.

Dilemma ><.

posted by Zeph Chew at 11:15 PM

I dont wish to be,i dont want to be and i never want to be. yet tho i never wanted it to be.am i consider to be it now?am i?somethings are running under my nose.i have no sense of direction anymore. am i on a isolated island?or im just thinking too much.
the problem of not having ans.the problem of having to guess it right.the problem of thinking about it.the problem of seeing it.

Life may seems DARK,
but mine is BRIGHTER than ever.

posted by Zeph Chew at 9:45 PM

woot!i finally fix up all the bits and pieces together!TA DA!my artifect is done!lol erm should be 98% ba.LOL a small problem =X.lol but still consider finish to me =D.so happy lor.like after so long,since start of march?so much hardwork .haha taking photos of it tml .lol.talking about tml.woot speech day followed by I & E.lol busy day .till 6pm.lol cries =x.well can be able to see impt person which is kinda rare on weekends.lol.nth much happen today.played bball for awhile and people say i from chocolate become dark chocolate =. -! so kua zhang.LOL.

We can't just make assumptions base on one side of the story.there are far more things we don't know.Making assumption quickly will only make us as sterotype people.
Im not trying to make assumptions on why this had happen.cause i know there is far more things which i dont know,what i merely see is the cover page,it is the content on the next few pages which holds the truth.
I shall give my full support , my trust in you.=)

Everything has an end,
but every end means a new beginning.

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 6:42 PM

Lol.long blog today.

Well saw my friend's blog today.really.i totally agree.we really take people for granted.As long as the person is still alive , still by your side , we shall take no appreciation about what the person do as we thought this is what the person SHOULD do.All this only ends when the person leaves the earth to another new dimenison or other to the end.that is when we will find ourself hollow,missing of something , missing of someone.only then the importance of the person can only be felt.

I know it is hard to say how grateful to these people in your life , it is really embrassing to tell them this face to face unless certain situation.yet we must not let that be such that we dont say it out as this will only show that we REALLY take these people for granted.thus my friends out there reading this.please say , say it out or write , write it out and let those who have been by your side how grateful , how thankful you are to them that they are always helping you out.dont regret not doing this when they are gone just like i had experienced.it is not nice.so go on.JUST DO IT.=). thank you my friends for all the fun , joy and love you all have showered on me.thank you.

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 9:26 PM

Aiya.havent online.hmm.lolx.MAN im late for school for the 4th time.crap~!got a s.o.o but dont know what is the use of it.just crushed it and dump somewhere in my class.lol.woot,what a peaceful day SUNDAR never come.lol.i think all the students who are taught by her should be all CHEERING all the way.lol.but peaceful day ended when that sulha piss me off.wtf 2 hours she can use 1hr 30mins to go thru 16 MCQs.WTF.if she is going to teach remedial again,i would rather not go and go detention than going.haha.today saw warren,estee and louis 's childhood photo.DAMN FUNNY especially warren's .LOL.how naive looking they were =x.but now!evil looking =X.LOL.joking (hehe). well taught jia yi amaths , quite alright smooth sail.tml must get A1 HOR.LOL.
ya went thru the phone.saw somethings which made me SO jealous.just cant believe my eyes.haha.well, lucky i was enlighten or else my mind would had ran wild like into outer space.lol. oh yes finally some pictures of her inside my phone.HAPPY =).how long have i yearn for it =x.hehe. well,my elbow hurts while her was knee.haiya. cant help much.or should say nth at all.just words.aiya.what can we do.rest more! =x.

posted by Zeph Chew at 9:16 PM

Omg,some crazy ass,just a game right.omg elbow my joint.crap.lucky not so serious.stupid lor,what will he get for playing till so violent.=. - like as if there is a prize money for him.like mad cow sia.lol play relax he play so xiong.=. -.lol.ohya sorry guys , apologies for my poor english.im kinda trying to learn , so if anything is wrong you can pin point=D.but dont be so offensive =x.lol. "profound and broken".lol.=. -
times flies,its so long since it happen.still thinks that it was just ytd.was sharing my childhood photos today with louis and gang.haha.they are going to bring tomorrow.i wonder if they will be as cute as me =X.LOL.woot,i want to finish dnt!!tml tml take photo =)!hopefully by next week i can finish folio.roar!then im a free man with lesser load to carry.so sleepy today chinese teacher was like chanting.lol.

i look upon the sky and came to realise that it was so beautiful.it changes thousands and millions of time, or even more.it changes to different shapes , sizes , patterns and colours even tho it is just the sky.qian bian wan hua.this is better than qian bian yi yu.Nature is really beautiful.look how the trees have outstood the buildings,the green-ness of it made earth a beautiful place.ah.nature.

Time really flies,
one flash and we are here.

Gradually Changing...

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 9:41 PM

Why?why do i have to guess,and what i guess often become too slow cause of my retaredness,my fear of been wrong and afraid of accepting the truth.why?am i really made to be so dumb and stupid?but its kinda true.stupid of refusing to tell cause of selfish thinking.kinda dumb to be telling lies without knowing the seriousness.a folly or prehaps intentionally.haiz.just dont know why i always have to be dumb acting strong which im not.im an ass to hide.and it will just worst which i will know.how selfish i was or i am.what am i thinking.what am i doing.why...im truely a selfish person,not thinking what other is feeling,all is about me.self centered...stupidlity.

Well,promised.and i will do fulfill.

dilemma.
you dig your own grave.

State Of Confusion.

posted by Zeph Chew at 9:46 PM

Haiz.It is found out that im really gulity.gulity for misplacing such a important care.trying to put a brave front yet turn out to get backfired.im such a total loser.what is the point of hiding.what is the point of showing a strong side. no point at all,what you get is been a lonely ass.sorrowful and sorry.im really remorse for my foolish , my dumb mistake and retard mind.haiz.kinda feel like bashing up myself.what a horrible mistake which is repeated twice..once was ok,but twice..is totally an ass.

Life is moving at a fast pace.why does it have to be fast?cause we human hates it to be slow,slow means wasting of time,precious time will be loss.but yet,we have people who live life slow,who doesnt really catch up with the time,cause they arent materialistic.other is the normal speed.while other is the fastest speed.they live life sofast that things turn to be ending soon,everything will tend to be meaningless to them when they found themself at the end of the road.but the road wasnt errected finish.but they just dont have the patience to wait so they took the boldest step,stepping on the empty road and fell like a sinking achor dropping into the bottom of the deep sea.

cherish the memories,
let miracles happens.

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 8:08 PM

Im really wrong,really and seriously wrong.im just thrown myself into a deepest hole ever.it is all due to be,i have chose to walk this path and i have ruin it.freaking shit.remind yet i still walk this path.why..why am i so selfish.the desire,the feeling.crap.im wrong totally! to be afraid of saying to doubt , to not know what is on the person's mind , not to appreicate. stupidlity has killed me,acting pawned me.im i too late?im having a whole lots of thoughts now.so many things to say.but i know it is useless to explain.im sorry.

What is the use of reminding when you cant even resist it.does it do any help?can you really fight against your desires?can you?if there's a will , there is a way.dont try.its a must.Why are you afraid of?fear will led you to death,now you are facing one.better to be truthful than a liar.

you reap what you sow.

Purpose Driven Life

posted by Zeph Chew at 10:24 PM

Lol.ohh.what a day.lol went to school to get laughed at .lol.crap =x.especially that stupid jasmine and gang.wtf.=. -.assess..today damn tired sia.lol.never felt so tired before.if my mind lose to the body.lol.slpt 2 periods of chinese.still not enough,nearly slpt during dnt.lol.can die.=. -.took nap just now but still very tired.lol.crap there is homeworks =. -.haiya.even my eyes want to close now.lol.tired arr.lol.

Everyday is a fiercesome battle,
everyone starts to battle thru from waking up to sleeping.
So,always get your weapon and armor ready.

Purpose Driven Life.

posted by Zeph Chew at 8:07 PM