My Life

Poly Starts

2006-04-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

Well , got my timetable for Poly course which means schools coming soon~! haha .kinda excited to study this course and kinda scared too . Excited as in the course is what i wanted to do. scared as in who knows how diffcult is the course? if i cant hand in assignment in time in DEAD.0.o~! failure is not an option in poly =.=..
oh well , had orientation earlier on. hmm to me , it was "er..bored" . Just couldn`t bring out the energy to cheer o.0. how strange. In primary school , you are bursting with energy inside you that you could shout till voice burst. In secondary school , only those in sec 1 or 2 maybe some in sec 3 could do excatly what we did in primary school . Well in Poly , for us to shout , it seems that we'll need all the influence they have. wha t i meant was , people around you SHOUT like a mad cow in fury then we could start opening our golden mouth.LOL. weird eh? pardon if im wrong on that.xD

1 day left to enjoy ~
Keen on the course..

Everlasting love

4th month

2006-04-19T12:00:00.000+08:00

Woot , went to marine bay to have seafood buffet today .yupx. The main purpose there was to sort of have a dinner with my dad before he leave for oversea job in vietnam. its kinda sudden when my dad told me that his leaving Singapore to Vietnam .haix.Hope dad will be safe when he goes there .who will want his dad to be in danger? There is many things that i want to express but i seems to be stumped and i cant write anything OUT. geez.

Anyway today is the 4th month for our 1st date ~!I could still remember clearly that fine day where both of us offically went out to plaza singapura. cool .dEaR was wearing green t-shirt with brown skirt(huge pocket..heee...).went to movie and stuff.. dEaR was kinda pondering what to wear the day before.haha thats so cute and sweet of her =). ahh. dont time just flies so quickly? 4th month o.O.cool! just when times flies by , its time for poly students like dEaR and me going to school soon .ahh..i was just starting to get on the holiday mood and enjoying wonderful moments with dEaR. oh well , none can stop time right? haix =.=

To all those who really hates their parents . Do cherish them , i know its hard to change your attitude towards them suddenly but you will never experience it if you never try. Dont wait till they are gone . Dont always have the thought that they are always by your side. cause you never know , you definately never know what misforunate might fall upon them the next second.
Cheers.

To my lovely dEaR
its been 4 months of wonderful moments with you and i really enjoy every single second of it. I really hope that those great times can be everlasting.

I can afford losting everything but
I can`t afford losing you.
Cherishing you every single moment.
Love you lots dEaR =)

My Life

2006-04-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

Well heres the head start.

Happy Birthday to my dearest dEaR. Leaving your sweet 16 already ?=p time to step out of it and march on to 17 , start of young adult.=)
Hope that you like my present. It may not be the best present in the world but its the purest love i made to you. Sorry that its not really organised. =|

Anyway , from what i really thought . Today is really a simple day for your birthday. Just went to TM watch movie then buy HP go home o.0.haha ...well , it seems that you are really excited about your hp . oh well , if im the one getting a new stuff that i like i also be like that addicted to it.so dont really have to worry about it =) .

Well , both of us are currently working at John Little Expo sale now. Its quite a interesting and fun job to work with , perhaps it is because im working with dEaR at the sale. haha . cause i won't be so lonely there and there is someone to talk to and play with ~ hehe. Time pass by quickly . Its only that Day 1 is really tough but i like it a lot cause its all manual work and it is fun ( dont ask me why..maybe cause i like it?heh ). Day 2 was helping out with supplies to unpack and put price tags .lol...
Then comes the start of work , cashier-ing at sale is really tough and stress for what i can say. Its totally like endless flow of people coming into the queue . Right after you serve finish one another customer is right infront of you =.=! .It is ok when the customer has less products but it is a headache when they come with a trolley full of items or bag filled with stuffs OMG!lol. Accuracy and Alertness during cashier is a must if not my head will roll ROFL..

Right.dEaR really quite enjoyed this expo sales too.It is really better than the previous company both of us worked in.Less restriction , less faces and NO attitude people .COOL eh? ^^. Perhaps we will work again with them for another EXPO sales IF Poly holidays crushes with the period.=D.

There are many things i really wish to do ,
but human like me have too little power to do so.
I will give you what is within my reach ,
but what is beyond seems impossible to me NOW.
Thank you for all your understanding.

once again happy 17th birthday to my dEaR . really must thanks your parents and friends for such a great birthday this year for you =) .thanks to them that you wouldnt feel so ill treated =)

Love you.

Words of pain

2006-03-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

How many times it had happen. How many incident had happened. How many times it causes us to aruge .
How tiny is my brain , how pathetic. Pathetic in the way that it doesnt really function before "it" came out of my mouth. "it" may be innoncet for what i thought .But "it" became monsterous , blood thristy and murderous to others and hurt one deeply .
How i wonder the many times that dEaR could have endure? How i wonder ..If those "it" were to stuck on me , how painful it would be . Like millions of sharp pointy knife stabbing on the soft armored heart.
Yet lesson had been learn before , but it seems that i have change none at all .Still the same before , still as idiot as before . Perhaps a brain surgeon would help to cure. How long i yearn to change all this such no arugement would come in between us .For all it started because of "it". how stupidity of me .
im sinned.

Nothing can help me,
only myself.
Yet i myself couldnt
do much to help.
how stupid that would be.

So please dEaR , please stay with me for i can't do anything with my own. sorry my dEaR . i really do. please forgive me .

words of pain

Sweet Love

2006-03-18T16:13:00.000+08:00

Its been 3 months since i got together with dEaR.
Time flies , maybe to other people 3months is nothing , but 3 months for me is something . I have not tasted been in such a long relationship . It is the most sweetest relationship i have more than any other i have been in before . Though there is some little or major conflict we have , but it always ended with peace again . No damaged was done as both loved each other deeply for none wish to end . Understanding between each other was much more deeper , understanding the mistake of the other party and love the mistake .Loving which was said " To love someone , you must love both his/her strength and weakness " for those who can't love weakness requires more understanding before it vanish into thin air.
What can i ask more , my dEaR has been the most wonderful , caring , understanding and patient women i had meet . I can stand what she do , what she does , what she done . OK! =D.
I hope our love will be as long lasting as it can be , for two of us will create that .
Love you lots dEaR. just to tell you that sometimes you should just don't bother what i tell you cause those hurting comment i made without thinking , understanding towards you those were impulsive words .
so dEaR , sorry for those past times that i hurt u .

Its not possible for eternity to happen,
it just need both of us to believe to
make it happen . =D

Life has been wonderful ever since you stepped into mine world , your world and mine bond together to create a new world , fun of interesting and never ending joy and laughter =D.

Time to make major step in life

2006-03-18T15:34:00.000+08:00

oh well. its been awhile since i have blogged =.= .Cause im too lazy to.LOL.haiya.. 1month already ..lol.
Anyway , got back O levels results like 1month ago . well, did better than i expected and as for my English got D7 as i expected too.lol. oh well , at least my results got me into poly . Got into the same poly as dEaR after posting was out .she got the fiancial business infomatics , i got into cyber and digital security in short same school same building.lol sweet~.
Time pass by so quickly , its like we were slacking around in school just few days ago and now we moving on life in seperate ways . different schools , different environment , different people .Hope that all of us could adept to it fast like what we did before from primary school to secondary school . I sort of hope that all of us would keep in contact frequently and meet out sometimes .Well we had been together as friends for almost 5years and its kinda waste to lose it just because we are walking different path now . lets hope =D.
Hope all of my friends a great success in future . Hope all those who fall to accumlate more determination to battle again for better results . bless all.

There are millions of people in singapore ,
getting our paths together in life for 5 years is slim.
lets not forget the times we were together as friends,
sharing things , chilling out together , getting into troubles ,
the joy , the laughter , the nerdy times , the panicy times
and mostly the fun times . =D

Day 7

2006-02-02T23:39:00.000+08:00

woot!its FEB 2nd! and about 30mins more to 3rd FEB!countdown lo!woot.dEaR coming back soon.woot!
woke up at around 7-8am today to pray tai shui.at first wanted to sleep more and pray tml.lol .but mentally keep saying gogogogo.lol so went to temple nearby to pray.yup.hope tai shui bao yu wo and my family and friends xD.
Woke up from nap at 1030 and prepare to work.met mum and took 518 together.wow.Isetan Scott is so DAMN big.lol.at first blur blur.cant find the staff entrance.rofl!then went in to ask a promoter.im such a nooby =x.gosh .the service room stink ! and i still went in thrice.its like human hell man.
Went plaza sing's LP zone to change my polo tee , but well better luck next time , dont have my size AGAIN.dot.now have to go colvent?at hougang =.=!.next week ba.lol.
that all for today ba..roar=.=~.
*cant wait till tomorrow night to come.

ROAR!
Take care dEaR =)

Day 6

2006-02-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

dEaR finally called yesterday .phew , finally relax .lolx thought something happened o.o..was pretty worried about her , then finally phone rung ."unknown number"=) yupx.muhahaha.
yawnX.was nearly late for dental appointment today.LOL 9.15 appointment i woke up at 8 and leave at 830 =.=.LOL omg did i transform to be a woman? so slow then ready to go out.LOL.well expected to wait for my turn there.lolx waited for 40mins o.o..then ya .went back to TM to play Time crisis again.LOLS im mad over the game lately.desperate to reach top 5=.=ARGHHH.lol.
then went back home to get charger and CDS for louis and went to louis house to play PS2. Reach Rong Qiang house at around 3 and started gambling =.=..
lol.3 person play blackjack is weird.you see the money move here and there.DOT.win lose win lose win lose.DOT.
finally won around 10bucks +? .didnt really count .wow.Rong Qiang has such a huge dog .scared me at the beginning .lolx its really cute .lol.
Went to play basketball after guo wei came .lolx. louis was like play poker leh ..LOL! but well still went to play basketball. i guess we didnt play basketball for quite a few months? such that most of us feel super tired and breathless after 1 or 2 rounds.ROFL.
Went to eat and went back home after that.
Gonna have a steamboat dinner at RQ house on SAT.lol .gonna go pray tai shui tml for some blessing.LOL.

6 days had passed.
2 more days to go ,
wish you would appear right before me now.

Love you dEaR.
E.T.A 2 days more.

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
work work tml!

Day 5

2006-01-31T23:34:00.000+08:00

hmm..2nd day le .dEaR havent call me.something happen?=\ .please be ok..worried~ .
ahh.woke up at 12-1pm today.YAWN .real tired .lol then went out with warren , louis and estee.lolx.. As usual , we went to pool , shop , eat etc.chit around and slack around.lolx.aiya , just bored . so go slack around =.=.
aiya. still can't break the record of 1.20m .got only 1.10m only .haix...more practise to go.can't wait to put the name KYT on top 5 =).
ohya.lolx warren they all keep saying i pangseh them when i have a gf .DID I?omg , please ~ i did go out with you guys when my gf is in town right? didn't i?lol~ dont maglin me ok? ^^.
well , shall do my stuff now and wait for dEaR to call me =).hope she does , im really worried .so CALL ME PLEASE !! =
its 2 days since i heard from you.
just give a sign to let me know u are ok.

miss you.

E.T.A 3 days

Day 4

2006-01-30T22:05:00.000+08:00

hmm...woke up with a spinning head today.dot...that sucks ..things seems not to stay at one point =.= that how it was like just now..yupx.slpt till around 11pm cause yesterday played mahjong till quite late .lolx...
Got up and went to 4th uncle house for awhile then meet up with brother to TM to play Time crisis.dot.he got the score i wanted which is 1.21m++ =.=~ sian..long way for me.lol...rotted at arcade till around 530 and got home .
upon reaching i collaspe on my bed and slpt to cure my head=.=~.LOL.i know i stinks =x
Ate reunion dinner with family just now.yupx
haix was really bored today .nothing to do at all.
miss dEaR really much.im so SIAN!!
=\.

Ohya , anyone see this car number SDX 9707L .Please help me to smash it =.=.NEARLY knock me down lor.wtf .RED LIGHT ACCELERATE?WTF?WANT TO KILL ME AR?KNN #($&@!*#^!@#. stupid lor .MALAY SOMEMORE.GOT CAR BIG ISSIT?CAN ANYHOW DRIVE AR?#$&#)($&.idiotic ass.

LOL.yawn

E.T.A 4 days left to go.

Hey peeps don't go to bai nian tml.^^
anyone wants to go out?msn me or sms me =D.

im bored.

Day 3

2006-01-30T02:56:00.000+08:00

Its 3 DAYS!!! omg , good or bad? means 5 more days to go..dot..bad is i havent seen her for 3 days and this feeling sucks..dot..
Well , another year has passed and it happen so fast .it felt like last year was like yesterday only.o.o.dot.hope all of us get what we always wanted.
quite a day today.woke up at 9am to get ready to go visiting.lol .got to great grandma house at 11am.wow.watch tv .slack and went to 2nd grandaunt house.dot.lost 20bucks when playing blackjack.what a start of the new year.lol.luckily won back 13bucks at 3rd grandma house.LOL.it rained.and i felt so cooling.lol.
went to pray god after dining at mac.ITS SO PACK 0.0!.the area to pray god is so pack TOO.LOL.and i got scar when trying to place the incense on the right door god.thats a bad start?haix.9 unlucky stars for dargon this year.WOW?lol.that sucks.lol...
omg..head spinning.gtg ..dot.

good night dEaR.
miss you really lots

NIGHT.OMG
cant stand le zhao...
E.T.A 5 days

Day 2

2006-01-28T22:12:00.000+08:00

Damn tired today.lol.slpt for like 5hours only =.=~ well i think i deserve it .lol sleep so late =x.
woke up at 9am.yawn SOO tired feel like collasping anytime =.= but still have to go to work.WORK WORK.
yeah.got to workplace as usual .stood there and done nothing much ..no customer at all .well what to do ?everyone just buy clothings , bed sheets and so on nothing to do with my products=.=~ .crap.ate EGG today.ROFL.
Played Time crisis again today .haix need to buck up more .only got around 1.03m points and i played like 3times.none of it got close to the 5th record.dot dot.MUST GET IT.lol cause 5th position wouldnt get deleted the next day.=) KYT must be in it XD.Chiong !!
rush back to 201 to have reunion dinner .gosh , dont know whether they are lacking food or what..the amount given by them for around 15 people is like giving to 7 people.KAO so little =.=~ that is the first and last year eating there=.=.
Well dEaR called last night at around 11-12am , phew luckily i wasnt asleep yet if not i would have missed the call.glad she is having fun =).must enjoy wor..miss u so much.hehex.
dEaR called today also .well was sort of waiting for her to call =).luckily again , i changed phone with dad cause my hp low batt.if NOT i would have missed the call !haha.So important how can miss it =).
hmm...take care dEaR ~ must have fun wor..

Really miss you lots
yearn to see you NOW =
E.T.A 6 days left...

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Day 1

2006-01-27T21:47:00.000+08:00

Well , slept about 2 hours from 630-850 today , yawnx .guess im not those who can really endure not sleeping for a night.lol.Ok. dEaR called my hp for 6 times and i was sleeping like a log.LOL.yeah i said earlier already i'll be like a dead log.finally woke up when she called my house to inform me that i can tag along with them to airport.=)
Well , dont really like to send people off =\.so sad ~ haix not gonna to see her for 6-8days...sad!
ok.got home after sending her off the departaure hall.
i collaspe immediately after getting back.wow real tired ~.
Got up at around 5pm to go shopping with dad , sisters and brother.hmm..been a long time since we went out together in one group..err except that we still missing of my mum who is currently working =\.helped dad to choose pants and tops then went to KFC and seperated.
Bro and I went to play Time Crisis , been a while too since we two played TC together.lol .well got around 1.01m score while my bro got 1.11m score -.-~ dot..
Bought 2 more clothing and headed home.
well, nothing much about today.man my house is in a mess.=.=~

I feel so empty now..
dread to see you soon..

=).miss you lots dEaR.
E.T.A 7 days to see u =)

ROAR!

dear leaving for taiwan day 1

2006-01-27T02:40:00.000+08:00

Oh well , can't get to sleep .decided not to sleep tonight cause i scared that i can't be able to wake up later to send dear off to taiwan.lol.well i will be dead like zombie if i get to sleep now and perhaps i will wake up at 12pm?omg that is like SOO late.

Well , time files and the time for dEaR to go taiwan has arrived.lol.well good for her at least .able to enjoy what singapore doesnt have.oh well , dEaR must really enjoy yourself wor ok?promise me to take care of yourself there ok?^^V

Its been sometime since we got together .time passes by so fast when we are together.it slows down like a snails when we arent together.well , its been a wonderful time been with you , dEaR.you bought happiness in my life which i seek .=) hope i do the same to you =P

yawn.6 hours more to spend.wow , it seems like its quite a long time i havent hog onto the computer for so long .lol~ how long have it been?since 15th of dec?hmm.guess so , but well its kinda a good lifestyle. lol =D.it worth spending time bonding then hogging on to computer~yay.lol.

well , hope dEaR is sleeping well now.SWWWEEEEET FACE XD.hoho~

Time to maple~LOL

Will MISS U TONS TONS
Im yours and only yours =)

dear's present for 1st month

2006-01-24T23:48:00.000+08:00

its a book , cover with cotton cover. written by the most wonderful dEaR =).

He and She Knew each other from their friend
They weren't that familiar with each other yet
But he could remeber what happen on their first
meet-up
Nothing musch happen to them after that
They drifted apart and only got back in contact
recently
It's been a year since they last met
They went out for straight 3 days
to the arcade , pasar malam ,tm
and feelings started to build up
love started to sparkle
He ask her to be his girlfirend
She agreed =)
Though short yet both felt long
He was the first on who made her felt real fortunate
and loved
She was the first one whom he brought home
They spend their free time together
creating lots of happiness...

They celerated 1st month, valentine's day , 100th day , 1st year
and more festives
They married and had Children
They spend their time together
loving each other deeper and deeply
This didn't change even when their hair turned white.

Shi Tien & Yan Ting
Love Story =)

How sweet it is .thanks dEaR. =)
oh well , she gonna go to taiwan soon.haiz?=sian, sianed ,SIAN !!!!!!!

oh well , mos called .tomorrow going to interview.lols.
yawn?dont know how much is the paid.=.=~too low dont want liao.LOL.dot.okie thats all ^^

Distance is Nothing.
Bond is Something.

1 month

2006-01-17T10:39:00.000+08:00

well , happy one month to dear and me .that was 2 days ago =x.didnt post till now.lol .im kinda slacky and lazy to do so i think..oh well , wasn't quite happy about myself that day =x.itchy hands and clumsy mind i had .*piak* .>< ya .wasn't on the right timing also , got dear mad on the excat timing !gosh .was it good or bad?*slap the forehead*.
oh well , was kinda gulity that i cause dear to fell . really sorry , i do really hope that the one who fell was me. you still feeling pain? =\ .
That was the first time i ate fish and co. i guess , it was pretty nice , yupx and i got to learn how to eat sotongs?=x.oh well it was nice .lol .ahh we saw benny and gangs too.lol. so qiao ^^;
Yawnx , kinda tired now i guess .lolx gonna go hunt for job soon .LOL .yeahx desperate for more cash i guess. oh well , wouldnt neglect dear . so dear dont worry about it ok?=) if i have spare time sure accompany you!haha.
erm..once again happy 1 month .xD.oh shit , i havent cut the neoprint =x.AH!?! ok , prehaps at night.lol
anyway , DONT ROT at home dear !find something to do at least xD.
miss you lots.

Love,
the powerful feeling which can change one person completely from bad to good etc.

love you LOTS .muack !
time to run xD.

My Life

2006-01-05T10:14:00.000+08:00

*Ahem* okok im here to blog .first of all , happy new year to all and one . forget about bad things on 2005 and reach out for 2006 ! it is a brand NEW YEAR !=).
oh well , it was fun on new year eve .went out with dEaR to downtown(fisherman village).bought some sparkles etc then went to seaside and throw it to the sea .that was fun ,perspire quite a lot too.lolx.oh well , guess we'll challenge the maze in the evening .lol =x.
hmm , this is the 1st time i bring a girl to my house o.o. haha .oh well hope dear dont mind my royal humble.lol.oh what is that...nvm.z
Quite a lot of things had been done lately and it was really fun been with dear . so glad and blessed.haha .
oh well , that is all .ALL about dear ! yupx !
still pondering when does estee , nerdy tay and louis want to catch nirvna? ..I WANT TO watch !gosh !make yourselves FREE PLEASE.LOL! i heard it is nice AND nice movies cannot be MISSED!
LOL.

It had been felt by both of us.
though short yet felt long.

i love you,dear
=)

miss you lots.

sleeping well?xD

happy merry XMAS

2005-12-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

Haha. went out with dear dear on christmas eve , bought mini log cake .lol the normal one was too huge and fattening .lolx . then met dear with her friend + friend's bf .lol double date that is. errr .dear saw christmas edition de eeyoree .then i went to buy dual for us ~! .lol its cuteee. xD .
went to downtown east after dinner at pastamania .lol...errr dear dear made a wonderful christmas gift .it was a hand rest with eeyoree on it and also with my name on it.haha .thx dear.
err..then downtown wasnt as pack as what her sis said . nth to see .bought breezer AGAIN then went to swing swing till like 2am .so tired =x. haha then went back home lor .damn tired .lol .

well that is all ba. thx dear dear for the christmas present .hope you like my present =)) .love ya lots

tianchangdijiu.

love is in the air

2005-12-23T19:31:00.000+08:00

Haha.woot been awhile , quite busy lately .haha well its worth busying for xD. oh well lets see , when to east coast yesterday with dear to attend her friend's chalet. was playing along the way when walking towards the chalet from bus stop.lol we felt like kids =x .hmm since we were early , went to the beach to get some earthing done if not i would be like a power plant .the sky was cloudy and it was soo cooling till i start freezing .lolx. oh well , then sth bad happen .so sad for dear. bear with it k~!? haha then went to chalet , had bbQ .felt so blessed to be feed by her .oh well i also did the other way .lol 4 people bbqing .gosh so "crowded" but was quite fun also.lolx.
since dear wanted to drink so much , got her a breezer? or sth .lolx. then her whole face was as pink as her shirt ! its boiling too .lolx man she must be feeling very hard.tired and energetic at the same time.haha no more breezer at night =P.

had fun that day .both of us were dead beat .collaspe dead on bed after bathing .lol nearly quarrel on the phone .-.-~

Today~!went nexus for 1 hr .lol then went hp hospital with dear . gosh the guy is so bloody sarcastic .i wonder why so many of the people in service line is so bloody attitude. crap. boss cock eye or sth?zz. watched wallach and gromit ?did i get it right .oh nvm .lol funny show .lol short and funny. got what is needed . time to work work later for tml .xD .next week would be tiring .working till wed.omg ? -.-....sian .such a long weekday .><

love you lots ,
do you feel the same way? =)

one from a billion.

updates =))

2005-12-21T08:35:00.000+08:00

haha.ok updating time , been awhile since i have updated .lol busy ~! hehe. hmm went out with yt 2 days ago .haa woke up like 7+ in the morning , cause we gonna catch king kong at PS for the early show if not it will be full at 11pm onwards . took photos on MRT .lol sweet .well , reached PS and thought we will early , yet others were even earlier !but lucky for us the session that we are catching wasn't that full . oh well , i think i remember watching King Kong before , except for the graphic , wasnt so nice last time .oh well , it is a touching story . sob!
Met up with her friends , then went to slack around .took neoprint at TM .oh ok kinda spent 20mins or more on editing the photos .lol no time limit at first .then Met up with her friends again , ate at MOS then went to arcade .ha .shop around again then home we go !
Really happy that day , haa yt was funny , especially when i went to meet her .hoho .

Went to nexus yesterday , touch up unfinished then went to yt house again .gosh not again .her father came back. dot.
anyway , kinda make her mad when i went up to her house again for maple Event , AND CRAP i was FOOLED.ZZZZZ. sorry about disturbing your nap ><.
haha .ok .met her mum also o.o!haa

Miss you badly.

You light up my life.

Kiss

2005-12-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

woot. today's sale is so damn lousy ! 1 sold .lol well at least better than nothing.haha waiting patiently for 28th to come . private sales ! 20% off.lol i guess a lot of people will drop by and BUY . good news ! =x . bored la promoter's job .haha .

ahah. gave her surpise today ~! haha . told her i was going home , but went to find her when she want to go downstairs walk walk =p. haha im pro =x .
haha wanted to wait de , but ..haha .something happened x).

haha.
miss you lots.

love

2005-12-17T07:46:00.000+08:00

well , talk about yesterday .dang . woke up at 8+ to go to school for nexus . then went to yt house to have home cooked maggi mee. oh well , wasn't quite filling but taste very delicious.well of course someone cooked for me .oh well , not up to standard .lol she didnt know how to hit an egg =x.
haha. hmm , sort of helped her do quest in maple . then her father came back .oops?lol luckily he went to take a shower then i ran off .lol but he still knows i was there . =.=~ not so sneaky after all .lol
erm had bbt and send her back home =) . then went home and slpt like a pig without bathing .ohh =x.lol doesnt matter.
ah 50+ hours more =|
miss you lots .

time to work today .lol sian ar . hope have more customers so that time would pass by very quickly =).

though short yet felt long.

In Love

2005-12-15T20:35:00.000+08:00

oh well , woke up at 6am today . bloody tired , but still able to maple o.o .lol. anyway mango sales , seems like orchard areas have the MOST singaporeans there . wa pros soldiers. =x .
anyway , went to school today for nexus .lol luckily for me i planned to go , KWEK smsed .lol so paiseh if i said i never go =x.LOL .hmm . both wall painted BLACK?@#!@#? gosh , i gonna have hard time getting 3/4 of it white AGAIN .argh .
went out with lunch with YT , oh well she just went for 4 world wars . seems really tired , there is even battle scars.lol pro lor girls -.-
.oh well , meet her and she headed for ww5 when food court was filled with hungry office people .lol man NO SEATS AT ALL @.@. went to have lan at pavillion , oh well .it sure lived up to it's name man . a sauna .WTH . SOO BLOODY WARM , sweat like mad.Zz
hmm , tour around tm and cs then send yt home .ah ponder for quite long and finally came to a decision .yupz .first time so abit weird .but glad =) .
17 3407 xD .ask me if u dont understand =p

hmm . is the movie king kong nice or ? any nice movie?

it is a blessing from heaven .

My Life

2005-12-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

haha.woo..had quite some fun today .went to pasam malan with yt .hmm dont know whether i spelt it correct.lol oh never mind .well did survive not eating until 6pm to buy food from pasam malan.lol .wasnt really filling till i went to hawker center to eat.ahh that is better.lol
well , my area's pasam malan is so pathetic .nothing at all , hmm =/ .the coconut isnt up to standard , the meat is SOOO hard. lol but tampines MRT 's pasam malan is better , the coconut taste delicious and the meat is soft .yum.lol
i got a eeyoree ~! thanks to yt .haha thank you =D.it is sooooo cute.took quite a lot of photos .lol .
went swinging too .haha yt cant win me =x. boo. she is so afraid of cats o.o.lol .if one jump out of nowhere , i think she will faint o.o! lol

hmm . nothing much today , OHYA PEOPLE MANGO SALES TML 8AM AT ISETAN TAMPINES , SOOOOO CHEAP .LOL must go !

had fun today xD.

My Life

2005-12-13T19:30:00.000+08:00

Ya.sian , lets blog .hmm really bored when working man , sian no more promoter jobs for me man .SO SIAN . stand there and rot.haixx..hmm today is my mum bdae .lol had sakura .lol..o well , nearly got my stomach burst out .LOL stuff too much food -.-.IM TOO GREEDY .LOL poor sakura .lol =x .o well , went to play arcade with friend .lol T-MART's lan shop suck lor wtf.ADVANCE BOOKING MY ASS , did u put your number there to say there is advance BOOKING? kns.LOL NEVER GO THERE MY FRIENDS . they will let others 1st than u. BLAH.LOL

hmm.bored..chionging maple these days.lol KWEK coming back.DIE .nexus is like 1/2 done .SOO dead.lolx oh well. nothing much le.

i wrote it down in pencil to show u that it really fade away , like the pencil mark .soon faded when time pass by.

SIAN .I NEED ENTERTAINMENT.LOL

Job

2005-12-05T12:51:00.000+08:00

Oh well , lets start talking 2 days ago.lolx no sale at all.dang . 1st time eat salty egg =.=~ .haiya .sale is bad!everyone want promotion =x.lol~ bored. oh .met a super bad attitude customer yesterday .damn~ if i know where she work , sure go there create havoc.@@_#!@(#^&@!#. crap~!.

lol .bored ! holidays are bored =x or not? oh well ,holidays > schooldays .LOL thats what i think .hoho. a week more to N level results .haha god speed to all N level students ^^. hope i dont spoil your holiday mood >< .haha.

time to chiong game at 4pm .hoho .now rotting ~.no one online ! ahh~ CRISP DRIED AGAIN. racking my head on nick selections-.-~.
oh tml going out.haha~that nerd's birthday celebration .haha oh if u dont know who is the nerd well he is WARREN TAY =x.LOL

Bright Sun~
Journey Of Life

Nexus

2005-12-01T20:22:00.000+08:00

lol.z well still got nth on my mind haiya -.-" . no such thing as perfect right. lol sian .i just found out how indecisive i am.zz.lolx sian nvm . nexus today . the ladder is like a shaking tower.lol dang -.-..was fun today . then got hm .play game -.-~ .haiya.routine sia.zz

gosh i got nth to say.lol blog next time

oh well , happy birthday to adeline ^^

Journey Of Life

o

2005-11-28T20:57:00.000+08:00

o well ,lol havent update after soooooo long.lol been busying with work and games that is. haa

o levels had passed on so quickly . gosh can't sense the different before o levels and after it.lol just in a flash IT comes and GO.woot.

yaya . Power juicer.lol working at isetan tampines. well , its kinda dried there .dang . ALL FEMALE workers . except for some guys which is so far from my counter.LOL sian . working isnt really fun at all. well only by that we can taste the pain from our parents right? working also brings along experiences for our future development.lol . learn about different customers.LOL . crap -.-~ .

sian la. tml prom .not going.lol . well not keen at all . dont know why.

oh yeah . harry potter is nice .must watch.LOL i bet a lot of people did.so dont bother about my note =x.LOL

erm . well 3 more days to go and i have nth on my mind.LOL i need help desperately .anyone to save me ?=x.MSN me if u want to get more detail about what im saying.LOL

To the Outer World
Journey Of Life.

eve of battle

2005-10-19T22:16:00.000+08:00

tomorrow marks the start of the final battle . tonight is the eve. well , all the best to all who is taking combine science . god speed .

o.o

2005-09-25T12:05:00.000+08:00

hhaha.dang , im just so lazy to blog recently AGAIN.damn , dont really know what to blog about , kinda sucky tho . my results sucked .damn .lol . ya damn myself -.-. aiya . sian . nth to say .haha just bored .

chapter 1

2005-09-16T20:20:00.000+08:00

Well, kinda laggy recently .havent been blogging like WOW how long..lol.kinda lazy to post anything at all . seriously i just found out that THERES nothing interesting at all ! or rather nothing motivate me to play or do .dang. cause prehaps i just play too much of games .ITS BORING .LOL .dang. i need new entertainment man!!.lol im CRISP DRIED out here ..hello? lol..! lame =x.

yawn, so it the next page . ok i still dont know the answer i seek for .but well , who cares? i dont really desire that.haha . kinda bored also x). you see the start , you predict the process , you expect the ending .so whats there to interest you?nothing right?LOL . dang.

prelims is over , the last battle for secondary school days is approaching soon , like a unevitable event for us.lol .sian..this is total crap. ! cause i havent start preparing for IT.DANG. i need help ! =x

Dawn.
Journey Of Life.

Chpt

2005-09-13T20:50:00.000+08:00

The page was return . Yet it is not a happy start or wasnt it?The plot wasn't written by me , for i dont have to power to do so . for another who was suppose to be in is writing . all shall depend on the person , whether it will bring a happy ending or a sad ending .

i don't yearn for it anymore , for i no longer desire for it. it is once here but now it is lost. the burning flame is dying off.

Journey Of Life.

in love.

2005-09-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

haha.yeah , yesterday was the day. lol .i finally open my heart. haiya was i really a fool ? i just felt that things had really changed . i begin one fine day , and happen to what it is today . ahh .such gigantic different it is.lol. im again stepping into a fool's steps or prehaps not? well .. im back once again .blogging .LOL. 17 more hours to the opening . 2 more days to the competition , i doubt my team is ready . sucks...the desire to win is so great that i cant afford anything to go wrong . =/ . dot .

Another chapter is written , a brand new page .

Journey Of Life.

o.0

2005-09-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

Bored! very bored !
yawnX.lazy to blog lately.lolx dont know what to blog.lolx. kinda bored to say what we do everyday right?lol .=x
Unlease the devils

Journey Of Life.

what is becoming of this family?

2005-08-30T20:43:00.000+08:00

the scream still echo inside my head.the harsh words reflect how useless one is.i feel nothing at all.what is the point.
what i once thought to be joyful and peaceful ,turns out to be broken and shcattered.what is becoming to this peaceful moment? was i too naive thinking then .or i just know more than what i suppose to know.
i see no point of raising another, i see no point in waiting anymore, the end draw near.the final eruption will soon be here.time is running out on me . what can i do .what am i suppose to do when i face the enraged you?i can't utter a single word .i have no rights , all the power seems to be with you , as i am not but a leech , leeching on your life force , draining away every second of your life slowly and painfully.
its too much to bear , too much to carry . you ought to throw one off , to carry on easily and steadily.

Journey Of Life , never try to buy what you can't afford . you will pay the ultimate consequences , which will drain every second of your life away just by paying it. be wise . think thrice.

=D

2005-08-29T21:13:00.000+08:00

dot . crap . what was it today .lol dont really feel like doing the composition.lol . crap =X.haiya. slacking like mad. while others are chionging like mad.DOT. looks familiar....

Zhi Shao Hai You Ni.

Journey Of Life.

The Way Of Life I Had

2005-08-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

Well , guess gradually im returning back to the point .just like a car on a slope .stop the engine and it will slide back due to gravity.=D. lol. prehaps im still have the stupid mind , sorry about offensive comments. just making assumption , well that prehaps may kill the faith . dot.i dont wish to repeat history.
Well , today was bored.especially dragging myself out of the bed or rather sofa.lol .damn , well to school for like 10mins to do dnt.DOT!! taught emaths .well if she doesnt want , then never mind next time prehaps.i feel so been irresonpsible. haiya.
life is sad , everything you wanted to do is always oppose by unpredictable force. it just keep dragging you down when you are trying to fly.whatever that is , we just can't end now ,its foolish prehaps..or ? .well just keep living till the final bell ring . for now , friends are there to accompany , family is there to help or prehaps not. haiya.

Life like this
Live it.

Purpose Driven Life.

Today!

2005-08-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

yeah today.i woke up late.like gosh , monday to thurs rushing to school and now finally im late..lol .slpt at emaths =x.well went to school for 3 stuff , PE . moive and amaths.lolx .well the moive is hilarious.people who are stressed up , catch it ! you will sure to laugh off your seat like i do.lol.

Well i thought they say ask and you shall be given .haiya . prehaps the person think otherwise .this is when good intention turns bad. =x.prehaps.haha .i thought things will change , well itz the same .nvm.lol tired of it already . feeling very weird recently .kinda unkeen now.im tired.

not another one , ya true it failed her driving lesson , she just keep driving madly.lolx on frenzy =X.lol

its dead.

Purpose Driven Life.

dnt?

2005-08-24T21:10:00.000+08:00

lol.woot.is it done?like finally?lolx.last !! presentation!.haha dot.kinda tired to stay in school. can't help but to sleep again , well at least now i slpt during free period.haiya , lacking lots of motivation to study. how?lol .althought this is prelims . . . .but dot.sian ... cant get myself to sit down and study!!.i guess a lot of people is facing this problem . but well , from what i see is handful or rather a lot of them studying .gosh. accumlate?lol.sian ... what a terrible feeling of competition...lolx.

sian , i still can't get enough sleep . i yearn for more.yup weekends.=).

If you dont have the mood to play , dont drag us down .we arent that pessimistic as you. it just kills the team spirit . so what for you join? for fun? what kind of shitty character is this? fucking waste my time?fucking waste my money.

Purpose Driven Life.

dot!

2005-08-23T20:26:00.000+08:00

haha.sian , slpt like mad in class again ><.so tired =x.LOL .dot stayed in school as usual .haiya just awhile more and it should be done =).so happy to finish. ^^V.well itsdying .yeah it is.i just found that there is a way to reapproach in a different manner .that will be the best for the person .

it may look like another traffic light but to me , it is something i cross about everyday.

Purpose Driven Life.

Break break.!!

2005-08-22T20:06:00.000+08:00

haiya.well , going to finish my dnt soon .that is really a piece of good news =).2 more pages and i suppose that im done~ .ha. just recall how much effort have been put inside , all the nights ..ahh worth it.

ya a break , everyone does want it. i yearn for a break as though a kid yearning for a candy. haiya. but it seems to be impossible . the world is moving real fast , stop and you shall be lag behind .it is a high competition world aren't it?all your classmate will outwin you even how smart you are . well , when will we get a break? after o's?nah it will be the time for work . to earn and to pay back , to be reponsible for your future behold , to be sensible , to be independent cause just few more years and you are on your own. so , we will process to a higher and higher level . when do we stop ?when we have white hair all over? maybe? we just regenerate what had been lost today by sleeping and use it for tomorrow and do it again for the next day .just a cycle it always have been a cycle.

i just realise that i cant rest!

Purpose Driven Life.

tireD ar.

2005-08-21T14:35:00.000+08:00

dot.dot.lolx indeed abit what i guessed.dot , well im kinda dont like indirect , too irritating .somemore infront of me.dot.nvm nvm.i can take it.lolx.from what i think , ya it is true.i tend to lose myself whenever she is presence.duh.lolx.i just couldnt stand calm anymore , talk without thinking.well , that is something which i dont seems to be able to change so easily .bad habits die hard.dot.well , i'll try again till i success.that is the spirit?lolx. very tired. sorry to all .
prehaps i thought that people will be able to take it like i do , i was wrong.lolx.i can take jokes doesnt mean other can.duh.haiya. sorry again.

its fading off..i suppose...
Purpose Driven Life.

=x

2005-08-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

haha.dot. gosh i think im not able to survive without handphone man , just get so impatient just now to get home for my lovely HP.gosh .dot dot.how can one survive without commiuncation?lol .damn the bus is slow once again.wasted like 40mins waiting and waiting for it to arrive at my house bus stop.dot.just hate that feeling , it is unbearable.lol.did dnt today , finally finish one section , gosh i just slpt with the music.dot dot.well , going to school tomorrow for dnt.going to do dnt later such that i can finish the whole folio tml , hopefully ya.well , going to drama night tml.haha lets see what surpise they are going to give.lolx.

Purpose Driven Life.

damn.

2005-08-18T18:28:00.000+08:00

im feeling so lethagric now.gosh , panic at oral again =/.awww?lolx.i just totally freak OUT.dot dot.sad -.-.never mind .its OVER.good luck to those taking tml . quite boring and tiring day today , still working on dnt. hopefully this sat can be able to finish. lols. haiya.had prata just now .quite filling i suppose , or?haha.my stomach is unpredictable.=0 . im tired !! ><

damn.i felt like a clown.dot , or wasnt i?lolx well , prehaps if you were to shower me with answers .im sure that i won't feel that.well it maybe too selfish =x.lolx.well , it took me awhile to realise that.gosh , i must be dazing in my own world just now if not i would have realise it earlier.dot dot.crappy. why have it been this?hmm prehaps this?or that?lolx can't make assumption =x.lol.there i go again .dot dot.

well , i kinda ponder me about this .it takes guys more to understand about girl. gosh , i agree on that . but it is kinda tiring sometimes cause we are guys and we arent girls.LOL . that is kinda simple.we won't feel what they are going thru right?lolx.so what we have to do is guess and using experiences xO.lol.sometimes it is good sometimes it is not.depending on the girl i suppose or the guy.lolx.it is hard to predict.dot. or should i say really hard . or?prehaps im thinking too sophisticated.prehaps it can be simple.haha no ending.-.-.

Meaning of Life?
Purpose Driven Life.

bursted!

2005-08-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

Well, the situation was kinda out of hand anymore.it was the limit!ya thought so.well , prehaps i wasn't too good to be direct in a sense that you never really put your shoes in another person situation.ya i was surpise what i had said in the past had affected the growth on you.god , i wish to amend my mistake.really sorry.but i don't know what i had say is too stupid or just about vending my anger . ya right.im in a wrong too.i dont know i just feel that.be in mind to be always tactful when talking , cause we wouldnt know how the other person feel , what we say would really pissed another party .ya like what i did today.it isn't good to talk bad about another party's belief , it is like pulling what they are dreaming of , believeing of and living on.we arent in their shoes right?keep to ourself maybe something good.somethings arent meant to be said , while others still can. aiya i just feel so confused !!im lost of words.dot. just feel that if it can be avoided just avoid it.i dont wish anything will happen to break the bond we having. =
well,kinda panicing now . 2 things for tomorrow .kinda have prelims practical tml.haiya and also O level english oral .i was like speaking english all the way just now.lolx.prehaps it will help , prehaps not.im shaking now.lolx.or not.LOL.sian .it is kinda a last lap for all of us in this school , the last of everything .i will really miss it.=
godspeed to all tomorrow.
Purpose Driven Life.

BOOK

2005-08-15T20:36:00.000+08:00

I WANT THE BOOK !! I WANT THE BOOK , DAMN I WANT THAT BOOK.DOT.lol gosh 2 days already yet no one TAG ME indicating they have the book NOT.OMG i can't stand it.OUR school LIBRARY is PATHETIC man.so small!!can just close it man =.-.LIKE NOTHING AT ALL.LOL. i really want that book before i just get bored of reading.haha really craving to read now .ARGG.no ending.DOT.every fantasy MUST have a ENDING arent it?HAHA.=x .dot im going mad.

sian.what is with that,am i suppose to know what happen?or?should i be studying rather than using the computer so that you get a better impression rather than seeing me using the computer EVERYDAY so you get so pissed?i dont know , prehaps im thinking too much again.aiyas , put that aside , just storm the front .haha i can talk with same generation people . but i cant talk with the older generation .IT IS VERY SCARY =. - . but well what promised is promised ! just do it.

hoho.today dnt , hmm..finally settle the problem after running here and there like for 4times?-.-.siao.LOL.damn,i forgot to set the weight of my artifect IT IS SO BLOODY HEAVY,my hand nearly snap into 2.LOL.ok that is over exaggerating =x.LOL.well , tml binding =). gogo.friday !

Purpose Driven Life.
oohh kinda bias =x.

dang

2005-08-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

OMG,im out of DNT PAPER,CRAP.WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO.tml dnt.siao =.=.death upon me =.=.OMG.=x

14 aug

2005-08-14T20:52:00.000+08:00

right,what have i done today..hmm , nothing much though .seriously , today's entertainment is sort of like yesterday's -.-.lol except i done some dnt .haha and im going to continue later on.lol.counter strike with wc3 is crappy game.LOL. yawn . right .that is all ba.no inspiration today.HAHA.still looking for the book.no one tag me yet =( sian.lol

Purpose Driven Life.

thedreadfulfeeling

2005-08-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

haiya.still kinda sian.have to pia dnt tml or later , i just thought that i have lots to do.even though im thinking of doing , my body isnt responding.haiz,that is the feeling i always have , my heart is weak , my mind is weak , my body is dead. -.- . this is really bored , playing the same game everyday , doing the same stuff day after day.gosh i need a change ! or prehaps a restart of everything . well , THATS impossible i suppose .lolx. it is kinda fast , i was yearning for the national day , now?omg , a full five days of school up ahead and the o level english oral .dot.im doom!i need a push factor , maybe what i have in mind isn't strong enough or it is just nothing to me.im more like a stray dog , walking nowhere , eat where there is food , sleep where there is bed.

right , what so called "divine intervention" is when GOD start to partcipate in the affair of man.

The end of the day ! how bored -.- .i just freaking hate weekends though i yearn for it during the weekdays.LOL.weird you can say,but that is the feeling i have.=.=

Purpose Driven Life.

pitiful.

2005-08-06T22:44:00.000+08:00

Was it all done out because of that?because you think im need it?or what was it.i cant figure it out.yes maybe it is.maybe it is not.cause i myself thinks that im trying to gain it.

I didnt expect it to be so fast,it is very selfish of me really .To be honest,what i want is to clear my doubt which means no gain in the other party which im asking.or wasnt it?i dont know what the other party is thinking now.this is up to my brain,my heart and my soul to think optmistic or pessimistic.=)

Ask and you shall be answered.

Boring..

2005-08-06T21:50:00.000+08:00

Sian.dot sia.thought will come back and see what i expect to see.haha but i never.that is what i call what you plan will always be affected.haha.sian.tonight so sian,sian and sian.lolx.it was really nice of sending me that.thanks.
well,today was really tiring, have to wake up early for speech day and I & E.dang.lolx.performance was great , well that is why i wanted to go for the speech day.haha.=x .the damn trophey is so huge distinctive dumanties award 0.0.what an eye opener.bigger than the 8A1s student.lol.Now is really called finish.yeah 100% completed.haha.left pictures to take.I & E was quite alright , not much guest and i dont really know how to speak to parents.lol.they never prompt qns to me =. -.lol.kinda weird.very slpy while waiting for it to start,but lucky i have songs to keep me awake.lol.DINNER with the whole group.woot shared experiences.haha.been awhile since we sat down and talk.was fun suaning miss kwek =x.LOL
Well, kinda happy and tired today,haha cause of some reason.but still abit sad cause of another reason.=X

Even those who doesnt know what im going thru knows what it feels like to be in my shoes.what am i suppose to do now?
Im trying hard to find my way out,yet there are always obstacles added each time i cleared one.how long will this takes.i wonder.

Everything of Us will never
be forgotten.

Purpose Driven Life.

snap decision

2005-08-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

yup done it.but im still thinking whether to give or not.something held me back just now as i thought of what i saw that day.should i be doing this?this will determine a lot of difference.very very big change in my life.

Dilemma ><.

Lost?

2005-08-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

I dont wish to be,i dont want to be and i never want to be. yet tho i never wanted it to be.am i consider to be it now?am i?somethings are running under my nose.i have no sense of direction anymore. am i on a isolated island?or im just thinking too much.
the problem of not having ans.the problem of having to guess it right.the problem of thinking about it.the problem of seeing it.

Life may seems DARK,
but mine is BRIGHTER than ever.

Sterotype

2005-08-05T18:42:00.000+08:00

woot!i finally fix up all the bits and pieces together!TA DA!my artifect is done!lol erm should be 98% ba.LOL a small problem =X.lol but still consider finish to me =D.so happy lor.like after so long,since start of march?so much hardwork .haha taking photos of it tml .lol.talking about tml.woot speech day followed by I & E.lol busy day .till 6pm.lol cries =x.well can be able to see impt person which is kinda rare on weekends.lol.nth much happen today.played bball for awhile and people say i from chocolate become dark chocolate =. -! so kua zhang.LOL.

We can't just make assumptions base on one side of the story.there are far more things we don't know.Making assumption quickly will only make us as sterotype people.
Im not trying to make assumptions on why this had happen.cause i know there is far more things which i dont know,what i merely see is the cover page,it is the content on the next few pages which holds the truth.
I shall give my full support , my trust in you.=)

Everything has an end,
but every end means a new beginning.

Purpose Driven Life.

QuestionZ

2005-08-04T21:26:00.000+08:00

Lol.long blog today.

Well saw my friend's blog today.really.i totally agree.we really take people for granted.As long as the person is still alive , still by your side , we shall take no appreciation about what the person do as we thought this is what the person SHOULD do.All this only ends when the person leaves the earth to another new dimenison or other to the end.that is when we will find ourself hollow,missing of something , missing of someone.only then the importance of the person can only be felt.

I know it is hard to say how grateful to these people in your life , it is really embrassing to tell them this face to face unless certain situation.yet we must not let that be such that we dont say it out as this will only show that we REALLY take these people for granted.thus my friends out there reading this.please say , say it out or write , write it out and let those who have been by your side how grateful , how thankful you are to them that they are always helping you out.dont regret not doing this when they are gone just like i had experienced.it is not nice.so go on.JUST DO IT.=). thank you my friends for all the fun , joy and love you all have showered on me.thank you.

Purpose Driven Life.

Questions

2005-08-04T21:16:00.000+08:00

Aiya.havent online.hmm.lolx.MAN im late for school for the 4th time.crap~!got a s.o.o but dont know what is the use of it.just crushed it and dump somewhere in my class.lol.woot,what a peaceful day SUNDAR never come.lol.i think all the students who are taught by her should be all CHEERING all the way.lol.but peaceful day ended when that sulha piss me off.wtf 2 hours she can use 1hr 30mins to go thru 16 MCQs.WTF.if she is going to teach remedial again,i would rather not go and go detention than going.haha.today saw warren,estee and louis 's childhood photo.DAMN FUNNY especially warren's .LOL.how naive looking they were =x.but now!evil looking =X.LOL.joking (hehe). well taught jia yi amaths , quite alright smooth sail.tml must get A1 HOR.LOL.
ya went thru the phone.saw somethings which made me SO jealous.just cant believe my eyes.haha.well, lucky i was enlighten or else my mind would had ran wild like into outer space.lol. oh yes finally some pictures of her inside my phone.HAPPY =).how long have i yearn for it =x.hehe. well,my elbow hurts while her was knee.haiya. cant help much.or should say nth at all.just words.aiya.what can we do.rest more! =x.

Learning Process.

2005-08-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

Omg,some crazy ass,just a game right.omg elbow my joint.crap.lucky not so serious.stupid lor,what will he get for playing till so violent.=. - like as if there is a prize money for him.like mad cow sia.lol play relax he play so xiong.=. -.lol.ohya sorry guys , apologies for my poor english.im kinda trying to learn , so if anything is wrong you can pin point=D.but dont be so offensive =x.lol. "profound and broken".lol.=. -
times flies,its so long since it happen.still thinks that it was just ytd.was sharing my childhood photos today with louis and gang.haha.they are going to bring tomorrow.i wonder if they will be as cute as me =X.LOL.woot,i want to finish dnt!!tml tml take photo =)!hopefully by next week i can finish folio.roar!then im a free man with lesser load to carry.so sleepy today chinese teacher was like chanting.lol.

i look upon the sky and came to realise that it was so beautiful.it changes thousands and millions of time, or even more.it changes to different shapes , sizes , patterns and colours even tho it is just the sky.qian bian wan hua.this is better than qian bian yi yu.Nature is really beautiful.look how the trees have outstood the buildings,the green-ness of it made earth a beautiful place.ah.nature.

Time really flies,
one flash and we are here.

Gradually Changing...

Purpose Driven Life.

State Of Confusion

2005-08-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

Why?why do i have to guess,and what i guess often become too slow cause of my retaredness,my fear of been wrong and afraid of accepting the truth.why?am i really made to be so dumb and stupid?but its kinda true.stupid of refusing to tell cause of selfish thinking.kinda dumb to be telling lies without knowing the seriousness.a folly or prehaps intentionally.haiz.just dont know why i always have to be dumb acting strong which im not.im an ass to hide.and it will just worst which i will know.how selfish i was or i am.what am i thinking.what am i doing.why...im truely a selfish person,not thinking what other is feeling,all is about me.self centered...stupidlity.

Well,promised.and i will do fulfill.

dilemma.
you dig your own grave.

State Of Confusion.

Gulity!

2005-08-02T20:08:00.000+08:00

Haiz.It is found out that im really gulity.gulity for misplacing such a important care.trying to put a brave front yet turn out to get backfired.im such a total loser.what is the point of hiding.what is the point of showing a strong side. no point at all,what you get is been a lonely ass.sorrowful and sorry.im really remorse for my foolish , my dumb mistake and retard mind.haiz.kinda feel like bashing up myself.what a horrible mistake which is repeated twice..once was ok,but twice..is totally an ass.

Life is moving at a fast pace.why does it have to be fast?cause we human hates it to be slow,slow means wasting of time,precious time will be loss.but yet,we have people who live life slow,who doesnt really catch up with the time,cause they arent materialistic.other is the normal speed.while other is the fastest speed.they live life sofast that things turn to be ending soon,everything will tend to be meaningless to them when they found themself at the end of the road.but the road wasnt errected finish.but they just dont have the patience to wait so they took the boldest step,stepping on the empty road and fell like a sinking achor dropping into the bottom of the deep sea.

cherish the memories,
let miracles happens.

Purpose Driven Life.

Im Wrong

2005-08-01T22:24:00.000+08:00

Im really wrong,really and seriously wrong.im just thrown myself into a deepest hole ever.it is all due to be,i have chose to walk this path and i have ruin it.freaking shit.remind yet i still walk this path.why..why am i so selfish.the desire,the feeling.crap.im wrong totally! to be afraid of saying to doubt , to not know what is on the person's mind , not to appreicate. stupidlity has killed me,acting pawned me.im i too late?im having a whole lots of thoughts now.so many things to say.but i know it is useless to explain.im sorry.

What is the use of reminding when you cant even resist it.does it do any help?can you really fight against your desires?can you?if there's a will , there is a way.dont try.its a must.Why are you afraid of?fear will led you to death,now you are facing one.better to be truthful than a liar.

you reap what you sow.

Purpose Driven Life

Laughing Stock

2005-08-01T20:07:00.000+08:00

Lol.ohh.what a day.lol went to school to get laughed at .lol.crap =x.especially that stupid jasmine and gang.wtf.=. -.assess..today damn tired sia.lol.never felt so tired before.if my mind lose to the body.lol.slpt 2 periods of chinese.still not enough,nearly slpt during dnt.lol.can die.=. -.took nap just now but still very tired.lol.crap there is homeworks =. -.haiya.even my eyes want to close now.lol.tired arr.lol.

Everyday is a fiercesome battle,
everyone starts to battle thru from waking up to sleeping.
So,always get your weapon and armor ready.

Purpose Driven Life.

Bloody Hell

2005-07-31T21:58:00.000+08:00

LOL.this is the 2nd timE!wtf.sian lor.assssssssssss.lol.but nvm.haha.ohh.went out whole day today.lol.dota in the afternoon , bbq in the night.lol busy day =x.man,i should have know.people with camera phone will get addicted to taking photo of themself.omg,i feel that im becoming one-.-.LOL.crap!!@#!@#.SIAN LA.crap lor.nowadays what happen to bus uncles ar.TMD.DRive LIKE TORTOISE ! 20km/h.WTH.GREEN LIGHT ALSO CAN BRAKE SIA.OMG .what is wrong with them?wrong pills?or too old and feeble...crap.=. -
was so impatiently waiting to alright on my bus stop.crap bus.then no keys...dot...lol...

What does it feels like when you live life unhappily.what does it feels like when you dont think it is worth yet you are trying.what does it feels like to be torture every single day.what does it feels like when no one understands you , no one to hear you out.

It is too late to blame yourself,
it had already gone by.

Purpose Driven Life.

A Change

2005-07-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

Haha.finally,a change.althought not much but still consider change?lol.how long have it been?i lost count.lol.well,went to change hairstyle and went shopping for bbq thingy with my brother.lol.nothing much today.haha.talk on phone.hmm that is all.im hungry and tired.>< .lol.

There is always a end to everything,
including a dark tunnel.

Purpose Driven Life.

Yesterday

2005-07-30T11:53:00.000+08:00

Well,lets talk about yesterday.was really a enjoyable day.went for hairspray.lol.bought specs in a gang for 1 buck and went around advertising.lol.really fun but tiring.that is the last youth/racial harmony bazaar for us!=D.

When Life seems to be dark and cold,there will always be people willing to help to guide and provide warm.that is life.so look around,there will always be people to help.when you dont see it,it is just that you have shut yourself.open up to see a wider persecptive of live.there is always something worth living for.

Its just a empty vessel,
our soul is the main.

Purpose Driven Life.

Pain

2005-07-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

ouch!both my feet are crying out loud!damn,thought was nothing till today,ouch.what on earth.feel like im waiting on the ground using my bone.my nail is coming off too.lol.what signal is this.=. - lol.ahh,tml racial harmony!lol,borrowed indian costume from friend.lol.it is big.like XXL sia.lol.but nvm =x.nth much happen today,had 2 tests.done dnt.that is all.lol.tired sia.suddenly feel like sleeping yet another moment i dont.lol.crap =. - .

Even how hard the road of life is,human still continue to walk on.having goals to set them steadily on track.it always struck on me.what if things goes wrong tml,will it be the same?we are not just but strange living creature staying on earth finding meaning of life.is it what it is?or?who knows?i dont know.do you?

Treasure what you have now,
never take it for granted,
or you will regret losing it.

Purpose Driven Life.

2005-07-27T20:24:00.001+08:00

I just love the night.Cool,chilling and relaxing.ahh,especially at the beach.the sound of the wave and the gentle breeze of the wind.ahh.well,now we know that our s.s teacher is so fickle minded.lol told us of what memory lane today yet tell us cancelled.lol.lame man.well,offically "out" of sundar's lesson ba.lol she never gave me test today and never ask me to stay back for remedial.AHH.how long have i yearn for it.lol.since starting of the year!LOL.woot,i think im back alive again,chionging dnt like mad.i really need ms kwek to push me man.lol.or else i just slack =x.LOL.yeah,with dnt finished IM half free =x.LOL.taking pictures today for research lol,scary sia go to the hall.LOL.that estee - . -.well,came out that the camera is so SMALL.omg.nvm.lol.that is it. ~ the time of the new era is approaching.

Answer?everyone wants answer to their questions.it will really make them think and wonder if there arent answers to the qns!what they can do best is guess and predict , then give a rough answer.just like doing emaths,you will check constantly to see whether it is right cause you dont know the answer.the urge to know depends on the topic.some gave up when they cant wait or can't find it.

the world is just too BIG for US.
we have no power yet.

Purpose Driven Life.

Power On Life

2005-07-26T23:06:00.000+08:00

Power,It can control anything on earth,even a life.well was watching a life been brutality taken away,not so taken away as it is still struggling to live.it quite unfair for it,never really do anything to offend yet still face death.is this what they called karma in buddism?retribution from last life.well,kinda sad.it is true power indeed can make many things happen or in fact everything.a rich man can drive a poor man to death,a king can just kill anyone he likes.that is power.

Well,today was kinda boring.haha.stupid rain.my shoes all wet!.lol.well,i guess that is it,sundar is going to heck care of me which is a piece of good news.lol.wonder if i am needed to go for her stupid rememdial tml-.-.lol ohya memory lane.lol.6-8pm tml!!omg .well,wish you luck and jiayou.!haha.

What matters is the internal and not external.
A person can be beautiful yet evil.

Purpose Driven Life.

afraid of changes

2005-07-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

sometimes it happen just too fast many of us couldnt take it,we all fall and despair,why have it happen so fast?it wasnt like this a few mins ago,yet now..we just cant face the fact that this had happen,we cant learn to live on with it.why?why have it happen,i don't know,who know?

well,still gulity sticken about today.haiya.have to learn to be cheerful SMILE.LoL.come to think of tomorrow,im most likely to die =x.no mc no nth.LOL.ahh.also that black ass sundar-.-..double stab.lol.gonna be intensive dnt this week.lol.miss kwek chasing over us ~lol.that is good,at least.i need pusher to get me working.that is me-.-".haiya.ok sleeping time ! before i overslpt again tml.=x

this will happen,
nothing can stop it.
it is the nature course of life.

Purpose Driven Life.

Ungrateful

2005-07-25T12:38:00.000+08:00

haiz.what a mistake,terrible mistake.im such a ungrateful bastard.will have this feeling everything when i do it.why am i here while others are there.suck.can i ever reach my goal with such a freaking attitude i have now.i cant change.i will still return back to the old form,will i?sian.

A bastard is not whole caring for,
for he does not appreciate what others do for him.

Purpose Driven Life.

Learn only when losing

2005-07-25T04:11:00.000+08:00

ai zuo zhan,2nd show about cherish only when losing,only that the role has changed.lol.ahh.finally,im going to be out of sundar class IF only that bloody black doesnt try to do anything funny later.lol,3hrs more to school.suck tho,too slack on dnt.haix.die.lol.guide me anyone?im like a lost sheep =x.yesterday was really boring,slpt at 6am doing dnt.lol.yet produce so few pages like today.suck.mind over body.

Eternity is impossible,
as nothing last forever.

Purpose Driven Life.

Learn only when losing

2005-07-24T04:40:00.000+08:00

Collage of our life,a vey nice show.well,talks about a jap guy who had this special girl in his life.but he doesnt appericate what the girl does,till the girl left him.but everything was too late when the girl died by the hands of jealously of dreams.People learn to cherish,learn from mistake after someone have left them.arent it ironic?people often take it for granted when they know the person is there forever,only when the person is gone,they will start to wake up.this is how life is.learn to cherish now,not when you lose it.

jealous is the greatest evil of man,
it drives a human in doing things that are unimaginable,
even killing.

Purpose Driven Life.

compromise

2005-07-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

Looking at the moon , wondering about life.

I just hate compromise people who doesnt,it kinda sucks.you endure what a person does,but when the person cant seems to stop doing it.can you still endure?it will get accumlate,compromise and never get release result in unseem consequences which no one expect.this only depends on how much the person can endure,how the person learn to forget it,if so the consequence will be less,all the hatred will be vanish into thin air.i wish i can forget things easily,such that i will learn to compromise forever.but i cant.

God created life to be beautiful,
but human destroyed it.

Purpose Driven Life.

Life,a cycle

2005-07-23T11:32:00.000+08:00

Well,had a very enjoyable day yesterday.went out to celebrate estee's birthday,was really fun.a fruitful night.Well,friend called me and we talk for about a 1hr.didnt really want to say what i really thinks,but just that it is not good to keep.like what others say,get up after you fall,there is more beautiful things out there.that is not just but what human said to comfort then from failures.own personal desires,drive us to do things which arent right.i dont,as it will hurt another party.so what do it really means,why people started it when they dont mean it.for fun?for the feeling?or self interests?.well,rotting today i guess.haiz sian ar.DNT.lol..Adeline!!!Tag leh.lol,wouldnt cause much effort to tag right?so start tagging now =x.lols

Life,things just a cycle.
The different is just the content in it.

Purpose Driven Life.

Learning To Change

2005-07-22T17:44:00.000+08:00

just couldnt stand the bloody sundar.so decided to overthrow her off her sit.since it had happen,no regrets.well,today was rushing like mad to come to school for the prize giving.scared late =x.haiz.im such a absent minded person,also forget things,one day prehaps i will lose my head and i wouldnt know it.lol.nothing much today.going out to celebrate estee's birthday.well,really stunned and surpised.but dont know why that things can happen so far.a moment like this and another moment like that.sighz.

Changes,should one really have to change to what others want?

Why should we be more understanding to someone who doesn't.

Purpose Driven Life.

Life

2005-07-21T20:26:00.000+08:00

Well,Happy Birthday to Estee.May you have your wish come true.haha.tired today,but still hyper.never slp sia.mircale.well quite weird for me to start loving to read.lol.i just started to read 30pages from a story book today.and my friends were like,OMG SHI TIEN YOU CHOOSE ENGLISH OVER CHINESE.LOL.lame-.-.the book is NICE.lol.can mrs neo get the bloody sundar out-.-.i just freaking hate her to the core that no words can describe.LOL.haix.im still danging from what i am.just couldnt help but took a few glance.sian.tml getting prize.lol.

I didnt wish things to change,
but the world is not meant for us.
eventually,things will change.
But i hope it don't cause it hurtz.
Some people just cant wait,
the urge of knowing is too tempting.
Curiousity just kills.

Purpose Driven Life.

2005-07-21T01:22:00.000+08:00

im still sick.Lol.the feeling of sick is fun.im mad.lol.well,today was damn moody and i tend to forget.AND I never bring wallet to school today.LOL.how forgetful.wanted to ask yet also forget.LOL.my brain is cursed.today damn tired.slpt at 5am yesterday.go school slpt the whole 2 periods of chinese.lol teacher just dont care.lol.sian.im slacking man.haix.like now.wanted to do dnt but end up havent do.wtf am i doing.slack all the way.kinda suck.haix.SUX AR.can i get sick tml-.-.

I once love to sleep,
but now...

Purpose Driven Life.

2005-07-19T21:06:00.000+08:00

lol.still sick.but still strong =x.well,went to queenstown today to grab our class jersery.such a long journey.lol only reach home 10mins earlier with a huge bag of jersery.LoL.ahh.stupid ass never print properly sia.zz.came out to be not what i wanted.lol.well had english new south whales paper today,damn tired so i just anyhow do and copy from jeremy.lol.the paper is crap too.lols.i just found out that im been punch by myself in the eyes.lol.blue black.=x.
ohya was late for 2mins today and got 1hr detention in return.how kind of the school.best man.that black sundar is ass man.im late so what has it have to do with her.knn.today go in and have to hear her kpkb "today test also have to be late?".kNn.like i want to be late.LoL.sundar-.- , mindless ass , wonder where is her brain.lols.

Bless my friends for which they are worth blessing.
Bless my family members for they need your blessing.

Purpose Driven Life

2005-07-18T19:59:00.000+08:00

Woot.im half sick.going to burst my inter organs out sia.keep coughing-.-.lols.well dont look sick cause im STRONG =X.lol.well had EL prelim oral.suck like hell cause my english sucked.LOL.was doing amaths in school totally gave up after i went out of fulscape or should i say cause i lazy to do?.lol.going to chiong dnt later.haha.sian ar.im slacking behind with tons of homeworks and studies stacking up on me.im flat under the books =X.lols.chiong ar!
Im running like i always have,running towards without knowing what lies behind me,without looking what is around me.Stop is the choice.Time is passing by too slow,but changes is taking place too rapidly.
it seems to be down to 1 from 2.

Mighty God , given your power to create life so easily.
can you release one same way too?

Purpose Driven Life.